I bought you a present..

I bought you a present today baby. And, I just know your going to love it. I had one when I was little too, and so when I saw it, I knew you had to have one ... after all, it's kind of amazing. If I'm honest with myself it's probably just as much for me as it is for you. {But, shh. Don't tell daddy. }

Did I tell you we're number three on the waiting list baby? Soon, so very soon I will meet you.

I'm counting down the days, even though I don't know how long they will be. We're hoping and praying we get to meet you as soon as possible... not only so we can prepare for you, but also so we can try and bring you home before the Ugandan courts close for the summer. If I have to wait to bring you home for months after I've seen your sweet face I may just die.

Hopefully it will be so. Hopefully it will be soon.

I have a whole box of baby things for you now baby. I had to have Tia Koko give me a new, bigger box after they moved because my old baby box was too small. I have all kinds of things in that box. Dresses for girls, cups for toddlers, books for babies, shirts for boys. I bought you the cutest dress ever if your a girl. If not, Aunty Liz will like it very much I'm sure.

That is the good thing about having little aunts and uncles baby... not only do you get automatic friends, I also don't feel as bad buying things you may never wear.. because they can wear it if you can't.

I love you baby. I can't wait to hold you and kiss you and tell you your home forever.

xoxo

Mommy


PS Here's what I bought you today...




PSS

We have two for sure girl names picked out now.. and two bouncing baby boy names, so baby dear, you've got a name now... but until we see you and know it fits, your little face, my lips are sealed..

I shall read books to keep me occupied...

I'm in a rambling mood today...

..and so, ramble I shall.

For Christmas husband man and I were given an amazing book from our friends. {we had searched high and low for good books on toddler adoption and attachment, but it seemed that all the books I bought were just not what I was looking for...} and then, low and behold we were given this book. I.was.so.excited.

Honestly, I think it's a must read for anyone adopting! I'm not done reading it yet, but it has definitely blown all the others away already....




click here to buy it...

..on another note, our first meeting with our social worker was today and it went fabulously!

I made cranberry scones.

They were ah-may-zing.

and, so, the meeting went amazingly well too.

You can't be anything but cheerful with scones in your tummy.

so, now, ...we have one form, one final fingerprinting, and one home visit left and we are done....

...now, Sanyu just has to call us...

and sadly for me, patience has never been my strong point.

I love you baby.

xoxo

my soul waits..

I find it compelling that ever since husband man and I were in Africa and the thought of adopting a baby first was spoken, this song has been in my head and on my heart...

i.just.can't.shake.it. {not that I even want to, but if I did there would be no hope for me..}

do I know what it means? no. Am I trusting God that it will all be in his timing and the perfect baby for us will be ours? Yes.

{{and, while I wait I will be one who dreams....}}

Those who dream

When the Lord brought back the captives ones of zion
we are like those who dream
and our mouths were filled with laughter
and our tongues with joyful shouting

when the Lord brought back the captives ones of zion
we are like those who dream
and our mouths were filled with laughter
and our tongues with joyful shouting

we will say...... among the nations
the Lord has done great things
we will say among the nations
the Lord has done great things

More then the watchmen wait for the morning
our souls wait
our souls wait upon the Lord
for with Him, His love and kindess
and abundent redemption

we will say among the nations
the Lord has done great things
we will say among the nations
the Lord has done great things

cause those who sew in tears
will reap in joyfull shouting ...

Song by Krystene Mueller

My dear sweet baby,

On tuesday I sent off our home-study paperwork. One step closer to finishing our to do list. One step closer to meeting you and holding you in my arms for the very first time....

I think of you often. I wonder if you will be a tiny little man or a sweet baby girl. I wonder what we'll name you, and what you'll look like. I think of getting my first picture of you, and finally putting a face and a name to our first little one. I can't wait until you are in my arms forever.

I pray everyday that your being held and loved. I hope someone is kissing you goodnight {like I did with so many sweet babies} and praying for your future mommy and daddy to find you. I pray that you'll love us the moment you meet us, and we'll know, without a doubt that your the one.

I've found sparkle shoes for you if you are a sweet baby girl , shoe's that I'll buy the instant I get home. And if your a tiny little man instead, I've already bought you your first hat. It's darling and I'm sure you'll love it and never want to take it off.

I love you more then you know already. I can't wait to kiss your little checks and tell you your home. Forever. And that I'm never ever going to stop loving you.

xoxo and pancakes,

Mommy

stockings are best when their b.i.g.

When I was liittle girl, my mom made all of us kids matching stockings for Christmas. They were beautiful. Perfect. And uniquely ours...

...so now, now that I'm about to be a mommy, I've been looking for special stockings for my little family...

..and I found these little gems on etsy... {which fyi is my favorite website ever }

and yes, I do plan on buying enough for Mogley and Lexi too...



made by rikrak.

Happy going to get a Christmas tree day!

xoxo