Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Dear Baby,

Today I am wishing for you more then normal.
I so badly want to know what your little face looks like. 
Have you on my lap. Count your fingers and toes. Rock you to sleep.

I want to know how your little arms around my neck feel.
If you were here with me now, I would sit and memorize every detail of your tiny face.
I would teach you how to give butterfly kisses.
I would tell you I love you a million times a day. 
I would hold you in my arms as you sleep.
Rocking back and forth.
Drinking in the moment. 
Not believing it was finally here.
I would hold you all afternoon, watching your deep slow breathing as you sleep on my chest.

Some people may think I am spoiling you.
But I'm not. 
I am making up for lost time

I wouldn't sleep for the first week back I am sure.
I would be too fearful to wake up and find that it all was a dream.
I have dreamed of you often my dear sweet one.

We have fun together you and I.
Your laugh is intoxicating.
Your arms are short and chubby.
And you give the best hugs.

I love you more each day. And we are coming oh so soon to get you. I can't wait to meet you.



Wednesday, June 16, 2010

In love.

For a sweet baby girl...

And, the crib we will get baby if baby is a baby. It folds up for easy storage, so our little room won't be all squished with furniture. 

..Plus, I mean, common, it comes in green...

....dying over these shoes my friend Ashley found... 

...and the bed our boys will sleep in when they're older? This.  What little man hasn't dreamed of sleeping in a treehouse? 

Dear Baby, 

I am spending all my time waiting on an email.
Thinking of that email. Willing it to come.
I'm dreaming of you running through the house. 
Skin warm from playing in the sun.
Belly laughs.   

I'm spending far less of the night sleeping then refreshing my inbox. 
Over and over.
And then, it is morning here and night there and a whole new 12 hours of waiting begins.

Thinking of you.
Wishing for you.
Praying you know you are loved.
Because you are. 
Oh so much.

....And even though I haven't met you yet my little one, my heart is aching for you. 
Don't give up. Mommy is coming for you as soon as I can. 

Friday, June 11, 2010

Crushing on..

For baby boy...

{{From Kate}}

Have to have this ...

and, for my sweet baby girl.. I adore this. 

....and just because, sometime you have to be reminded to shut off the computer and soak up today.. 

I have like 20 prints I want to buy from her. I think I may be running out of wall space... 

Still waiting over here in the east bay for word on our baby... 

but, for today, there may just be a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel.. 

and that glimmer, it gives me hope. 


Thursday, June 10, 2010

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

I see the moon
The moon sees me
Down through the leaves of the old oak tree
Please let the light that shines on me
Shine on the one I love...

Over the mountains
Over the sea
Back where my heart is longing to be
Please let the light that shines on me
Shine on the one I love..