Dear Baby,

Today I am wishing for you more then normal.
I so badly want to know what your little face looks like. 
Have you on my lap. Count your fingers and toes. Rock you to sleep.

I want to know how your little arms around my neck feel.
If you were here with me now, I would sit and memorize every detail of your tiny face.
I would teach you how to give butterfly kisses.
I would tell you I love you a million times a day. 
I would hold you in my arms as you sleep.
Rocking back and forth.
Drinking in the moment. 
Not believing it was finally here.
I would hold you all afternoon, watching your deep slow breathing as you sleep on my chest.

Some people may think I am spoiling you.

But I'm not. 

I am making up for lost time. 

I wouldn't sleep for the first week back I am sure.
I would be too fearful to wake up and find that it all was a dream.
I have dreamed of you often my dear sweet one.

We have fun together you and I.
Your laugh is intoxicating.
Your arms are short and chubby.
And you give the best hugs.

I love you more each day. And we are coming oh so soon to get you. I can't wait to meet you.

xxoo.

Mommy