Wednesday, March 31, 2010

It will happen

This is where I want to be right now.
Not yesterday or tomorrow.
Today.
No where else but here.

The swings are my favorite.
I would spend hours swinging babies. Holding them. Tell them they are loved.
Singing twinkle twinkle little star with my sweet Olivia
Tucking Anthony into bed and singing goodnight moon..
Praying for Moses mommy.
Making sure Elizabeth gets to wear a dress. Because it matters to her. and so it matters to me.

Blowing bubbles with Angela. Watching her wonderment.
Hugging Lucas when he cries.
Kissing Raymonds boo boo's better.
Scolding Sharon for eating dirt but laughing at the same time. So beautiful. So independent.

Bringing all the babies from their cribs onto the porch that morning with Em. Finding a blanket and having five babies to watch each. Taking turns holding them. Rubbing their bellies. Hearing them cooing.

Giving the older girls friendship bracelets. Pink and purple and girly.
Stuart. My sweet sweet Stewy. That smile gets me every time.

Wishing I could bring them all home with me.

I.
Miss.
Sanyu,

end of story.

2 comments:

Ellie said...

I keep checking in. I'm excited for you. you inspire me!

Erin said...

You don't know me, but I feel compelled to let you know that you're not alone in your ache for Sanyu. I was there the same time Elijah was, before your family adopted him - I found your mom's blog while looking thru adoption blogs a few days ago and have since emailed her. I ache to be back there. It's been 2 years for me...and I know I will return, but waiting is such a hard season.

Praying with you as you wait. Imploring God for favor.